I think I am going
I just seem to be eating sooooooooooooo many of them! I know… peeps will say that they are fattening… they do give me heartburn but they are slow release of sugars which is good for me as I forget to eat. I weighed myself this morning again… WTF… I had lost 1.5lb… but I was up 5 times in the night peeing… so what do I expect.
The OH had left our window open in the bedroom and I was freezing..my head was it was blowing my hair, this time I know it wasn’t spiritual!
A friend gave me a lift back home last night and we sat talking over black tea and coffee re spiritual things. it was then that I realised that I have a lot of faith, know rather a lot, but also have a lot to learn like others, but also I do have more strength than I thought I did.
Missing N lots…but I think of her with strength for what she has taught me through my life even at the end. She was a religious woman. She would take me to Sunday school… in the church we had her service in.. think I mentioned that. Although she never preached to me… I would love sometime in my life to do podium work for spirit, but I know I have a long long way to go for anything like that to happen. Maybe I am too lazy to study like some people I know that have. I know one who has done so well and I am very proud of him as I know his wife is :)))
My daughter is doing SW too but is so poorly and blah blah and has sadly put on 1.5lb this week. I love her no matter what… but she isn’t big anyway… it is just how you feel isn’t it.
I am missing my friend A at the moment… not sure where she is,…. she may be busy with family which is lovely.
Dinner: Quorn with mushrooms tomatoes onions and stock cube and some herbs. (all of above I had the day before Wednesday 6th but with pasta)
pudding I had some frozen fruit and fat free greek style yog…
My HA’s I had 56 gm of cheese on both
in fact I had 61gms last night.
8th June 2012
Breakfast: Banana and tablets (as always such fun!)
Lunch: More fruit… yes bananas… had three today and an apple in all…. need to drink more water might go and buy a bottle of nice water… I know that sounds daft but I want some nice water.
Dinner… not sure yet? And I dread it as it is Friday…..
Ahh dinner… a lovely salad made of .. tuna.. cheese, salad, rocket, onion, mushrooms peppers balsamic vinagar tin pots …..followed by water melon lots of it!!!
then 9 syns grab bag of quavers
What is the postivie note today… is to trust, but trust my inner self.