First i didnt get weighed as i said i would . I have been very busy helping family . Thats not an excuse , the weather has been awful and its a fair walk to the chemist where the scales are ,i have to think ahead will i make it , what do i do if i cant go any further, no where to sit ,i can remember that feeling going for a walk and the pain in my back being so overwhelming it reduced me to tears , so what do you do . I would tell someone to take a chance do it go for it , and yet i’m here stuck another week passed and still i havn’t been weighed.
Is it neccesary to know how much i weigh ,not sure im so fat i dont think it matters . what does matter is the fact im trying .
Over the last few days i have been out so all food stuff’s where sandwiches not good i know ,i have been eating ryvita in place of bread , but as i said last few days its all been bread and crisps that i have been trying to avoid ,but when stuck in a b&b and hungry , what do you do , eat what is avalible . And now you may think why didnt she go to a market and buy something sensible ,yes i know , because she was so tired And in the middle of nowhere . Rght on a lighter note , haha i was out this evening with hubby ,sandwiches again and toast when i got home . Ahhh home yes the place where i can slip from my elasticated knickers , where its ok to let it all hang out , no, i dont want to have to sit in a car for hours travelling with a corsett on and not a pretty one , the kind that does pull you in ,so uncomfortable i felt i couldnt breathe .
another reason to try and get rid of this fat , i cant breathe , i dont sleep well , exhausted most of the time , going up and down stairs , well thats another prob , add the back condition to that .
I was talking to B earlier , about what we can do , to make our lives better , well we are here because we want to help each other loose weight ,and indeed thats what we will do ,
this blogg has been here for 4 weeks , and i have moved only a short bit , to change food stuffs at home . i feel i am saying i’m going to do all these thing s and havnt done any , why ,why is that ,am i putting it off or is it circumstances just havnt let me .
Ok the first step for me has to be getting mobil , i have to ,i need to get out and about and keep it going . I went sight seeing on sat 12th ,it was great walked a fair wee bit all up hill lol was so pleased with myself , a few folk’s comented on me having sticks and walking to the place i did , one man mentioned the sheer determination on my face to get to where i needed to go ,haha but what happened got home that evening and missed the later half of sat night , ended up in bed with pain killers ,and that was it .felt a bit deflatted to be honest , this is not the way i want my life , i was always an active woman , played footie with my son’s , now days i cant even take my grandaughter to the park ,which is 5 mins away , its sad .
So here i go again , im off out with hubby wed night , but i swear i will do something , maybe change something , do something positive to change my situation i will write in a few days and see what i have done , lol Most reading this will think yeah she has said this before , we will see i will make one change at least , even if its a small thing ……